I’ve overscheduled myself. I am irritable and a skosh unreasonable and I didn’t even know it….until now. This retirement gig is really working out for me except I’m busy from morning until night. There are so many things I want to do and so little time, that I often set my alarm for 5:30 a.m. Truthfully, I probably only have 20 more good years left (if I’m lucky) so I’ve literally been cramming my days with things I want to do.
There are lots of books I want to read and yet, I hear myself saying that I don’t have time to read them. Now, that is insanity!! Going for walks, going to the gym, photography, volunteering, crafting, writing, traveling, Grandchildren, lunch with friends, movies with friends, Words With Friends….Then there are still the household things to do like grocery shopping and laundry; my days are going by too fast.
I’ve even said to my husband that I’m kinda “done” with cooking and cleaning. It’s highly overrated and I seem to have lost my zing for new recipes and creative organizing. I know in my heart that I could do those things if I wanted to, but there you have it….I’d rather take my grandchildren to the park or snap pictures of butterflies. I think Joan Rivers said it best, “I hate housework. You make the beds, you wash the dishes and six months later you have to start all over again.”
I want to be outside some every day, and spend time with people I love every day, free from the computer or phone. I want to write and be creative in some way, every day. I want to exercise every day and do something for someone else every day. And, I want to LAUGH every day.
I thought in retirement I would slow down, but I have amped up in a big way, making up for all those working years when I rarely asked myself, “What do you want to do today?” Possibly, I could try scheduling a ‘day off’ every week, where I don’t have any plans or pressing engagements, but that seems a little extreme. I feel so blessed to be retired and to be healthy and to be able to live my life as I truly want. I want to do as much as I can for as long as I can.
It occurs to me that this “overscheduled” feeling is a hangover from the working days when often I felt overwhelmed and overworked. My context for overscheduled needs to be revamped. Being retired just means it is now time for a new adventure and that’s exactly what I’m doing. I need to replace “overscheduled” with “jam-packed with opportunity!”
I hear that still, small voice say, “Remember, Lucky Girl, each day is an opportunity for growth, excitement, and fulfillment. Spend each day wisely, in gratitude and you will not regret it.” Amen.